January 15

I buttress myself against the long stretch of time and my sense of myself as aimless by planning, planning. I wish I followed through on my plans, all of them, from vacuuming to writing a book. I really feel lost these days.

I hope that my new position will help. For one, it takes up more time. Too much time is a curse. I miss the days of deadlines and structure, even though I experienced it as oppressive at the time. What I really want to be doing is... is anything that feels like both a joy and a challenge. It seems like everyone else is doing so much. Whatever objectivity might suggest, I nevertheless feel like I'm the only one I know who is going through this middling time.

*sigh*

I do read a lot though. I write little responses in my book log, and I do feel good about that.

January 4

Back after temporary hiatus, suffering from heartburn.

I want to keep better track of what I read in 2006. And I think I want to maintain a reading journal for sorts. Hence: All Consuming. Now people can judge me based on what I read more easily!